The Fluorescent Dance, and a Mind Divided

Our modern inclination to live in our heads has left us dissociated from the body – and we commonly describe that dissociation as a mind/body split.  Our description, though, merely deepens the problem.  Quite simply, there is no such thing as a body that is mindless, unless you are referring to a body that is dead.  Every living body is thinking continuously. The division we experience and are trying to describe is real enough – but it is not a mind/body split; it is a mind/mind split.  We have split the abstract thinking in the head from the deeply connected thinking of our beings.

Of course, that split feels normal to us, so it’s hard to realize that we have habituated to a kind of schizophrenia – a term that means ‘divided mind’.  And because we identify so closely with the mind in the head (“Keep your head”, “Two heads are better than one”, “I need to get my head around this”), we can eventually forget that the thinking of the body even exists.

We have all been taught by our culture since childhood to divide our minds, so this schizophrenia touches everyone.  You live with a divided mind, and so do I.  The effect is profound: it actually circumscribes our experience of consciousness.  By identifying real intelligence as abstract thinking (the quality we measure when we test someone’s IQ), we center our sense of self in the head, where abstract thinking is experienced; this disconnects us from the world to which only the body’s intelligence can attune us.  And so we come to experience our minds as phenomena that are contained in the cranium, enclosed from both body and world; we come to experience consciousness in the brain, and the brain alone.

You’ll find an important clue about where this has taken us if you delve into the wordconscious.  It is made of two parts, con-, meaning “with, together” and –scious, which means “to know” (the root of our word science).  Our modern schizophrenia neglects the “with, together” part, turning our experience of consciousness into something cut off from the world: objective knowing, or ‘science’.  But the deeper story behind the word consciousness is telling: it comes from a Latin verb that means “to be mutually aware”.  Aboriginal societies commonly live in a mutual awareness with the world, aware not just of knowing, but of mutual knowing.  Our historic experience of the material world shows the same attunement: the word material traces back to an ancient word meaning ‘mother’.  Currently we are so alienated from that experience we have difficulty accessing it.  We don’t learn from nature, we learn about it.  And we assume that our objective knowing of the material world reveals its reality, even though that knowing is created by only one part of a mind divided.

Central to our schizophrenic state is our belief that the almighty brain actually creates consciousness – and we cling to that belief, even as reality refutes it.  That belief represents human consciousness as being enclosed in the brain, animating the body’s mechanics in pursuit of selfish aims.  But consciousness consistently shows an ability to affect the world around it in non-local ways.  That is, mere thought can create change in the world.  For instance, light can behave either as a wave or a particle.  How it behaves isn’t random, but is determined by our ability to observe it.  If we are able to track light and know its path, it behaves as a particle; if not, it will behave as a wave.  The phenomenon looks uncannily like ‘mutual awareness’.

Neuroscience doesn’t defend its model by speculating about how the brain’s consciousness might reach out of the skull, interact with the material world and change it like that.  Nor does it address the effect of human consciousness on random event generators, skewing their results through mere intention.  When mind affects material outcomes in measurable ways, neuroscience demurely looks the other way.  So on the one hand you have its insistence that consciousness is an epiphenomenon created by brain matter, and on the other a refusal to address measurable, duplicable results in which human consciousness achieves non-local outcomes.

I believe that this stubborn insistence is rooted in personal experience rather than science – specifically the experience of mind and world that our schizophrenic condition delivers to us.  A scientist who lives in her head and experiences her thinking there will naturally begin with the question, “How does the brain create consciousness?” rather than asking “What model of consciousness might account for all of its attributes?”

But if mind and the material world are inextricably linked – if consciousness is a property that suffuses matter, as it does the body – what agency might it have?  How might it dance with and show up in our world without our being aware of it?  And might our ability to notice that dance have been limited by the assumption that our individual, human experience of consciousness characterizes consciousness itself?  That the divided mind reveals the whole of the story?

The impression we have that our experience of consciousness reveals its full and true nature is akin to our belief that our experience of reality reveals its full and true nature.  But we only experience reality as our senses reveal it to us.  If I throw a stick for my dog into a pile of sticks, she knows just which one I’ve thrown.  She so easily smells the trace of my hand on it that it may as well be painted fluorescent orange.  A dog’s nose detects smells more sensitively than any man-made machine can.  What a dog reads on a breeze or a bush is invisible to us.  A snake smells the world in stereo.  The world as seen by a fly or as heard by a dolphin would be unrecognizable to us.  What we accept as reality is to the whole as a single needle is to a towering redwood. We sort of know that – or remember it every once in a while.  But when it comes to our understanding of what thinking is, we remain trapped within the box of our assumptions, blind to the fluorescent orange occurrences flourishing all around us.  We are even mostly blind to the thinking that courses through the intelligence of the body, because its language of thought is sensation rather than abstraction.  It’s worth noting, in that regard, that our word ‘sensation’ derives from a Latin root, sentire, which means “to think, to feel.”  Before we confined our thinking in the head and severed it from feeling, thinking and feeling were recognized as one.

If we can’t recognize as thinking what courses through the body, what chance do we have then to recognize as thinking what courses through the world?  Aboriginal cultures, which find it absurd to ‘think with the head’, not only feel and recognize the thinking of the world all around them, they rely on it to guide them.  Exquisite, eye-popping examples are documented in a lovely little book, Original Wisdom, by Robert Wolff.  The “original wisdom” of the title is the wisdom that our divided state keeps us from recognizing.  It is a wisdom that leaves behind the locked-in thinking of the cranium, and enters the mutual awareness of the world.

And that leaves me with this question: if we cannot detect the mindful harmonizing of the world, how can we join it?  And if we can’t join it, how can we achieve anything other than unwitting opposition to it, even – and this is so hard for us to realize – when we are earnestly trying to solve the problems we have created?  All we seem to know is how to impose some new idea on the world to try to fix it.  Such solutions are all top-down – and we don’t employ them because they are the best strategy; we employ them because our relationship with the body is top-down.  It’s what we know.

I think an uncomfortable truth waits to be recognized: we cannot rectify the divisions and imbalances we have created around us as long as we remain divided and imbalanced within ourselves.  If we continue to neglect our deeply divided state, we will continue to impoverish not only the miraculous, mindful diversity of the natural world to which we belong, but also our ability to be present to our own lives within it.

I will work towards overcoming that division as long as I live.  It is only in wholeness that we can attune to the whole.  It is only in the mutual awareness revealed by such wholeness that we can truly nurture and be nurtured by the world around us.  And I believe that once the present is felt to be truly mindful, we will hear it calling each of us towards a personal wholeness that doesn’t stand apart from the world, but is realized within its embrace.

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  1. I listened to your talk at the Body Intelligence Summit tonight and was excited to hear someone describe the problem so clearly. But without some spiritual experiences of connection to the whole it is almost impossible to get someone to recognize they are stuck in their head and disconnected from the body consciousness and the sense of timelessness and communication that can occur. I am interested to try some of your exercises to get a different viewpoint from my own on ways to heal that mind split that people will respond to. Unfortunately too often crisis that is spiritually initiated is unrecognized by health professionals and chemically treated as an illness instead of as an awakening that needs to be guided by open listening and support. Truth comes from experiencing that wholeness, however briefly, which leads to awareness that the world is there to nurture us. Then we learn to be mindful of the subtleties of communion from the whole, which manifests as a knowing what to do without thinking in the situation before us that will be a right action suited to the needs of the whole world. This viewpoint is alien to our Western mindset. I once sat and watched the frustration of a group in a workshop by a Tibetan master where an interpreter slowly tried to explain to them the importance of understanding ones view of reality – the mind set – and how that influenced your consciousness. My own childhood spiritual psychic experiences interfered with my buying into the sociocultural mindset because I had another expanded internal view of reality even though I did not understand them at the time. But I could not ignore them and how they changed my senses and influenced the way I chose to respond to life and how I was guided to heal the division in ways that always led toward wholeness. It is a challenging but magical time to live in this world.

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